I started working with video in my early teenage years. Enthusiasm and a small amount of competence in my first project led to me getting a small paid job. This in turn led to another small job, and quite soon after I was registered as self employed and doing more small jobs.
While grateful for the experience that had seemingly landed on my lap, I began to get restless with the type of work I was doing. I didn’t necessarily care much for the subjects of my films and furthermore I didn’t find myself in any environments that would inspire me to develop as a filmmaker.
My next step was to go to university, which is where I am now. At university my films have been characterised by having elements of both documentary and fiction. I find myself more concerned with what I see as the essence of the film rather than subscribing to a particular form that it must be expressed in.
Also my films tend to be quite self reflexive despite usually have no intention for them to be so; in my short experience, the filmmaking process itself often strangely coincides with the intentions of the film in a way that makes it just as important a part of the film to be depicted/ referred to.
I’m not too sure what is next for me, but if I do continue to make films I would image I would still be concerned with finding ways of translating experience on to film. I prefer it when one gets a sense of something in a film rather than just intellectually derived conclusions.
Also I am interested in just showing things as they are. I believe that watching a film is a unique time in a persons life when all but what is seen and heard in the film is removed, allowing the viewer to connect with the subject in a way that may be much more difficult to within the abundance of ‘real life’. When we connect with a subject we are given the opportunity to comprehend it and with comprehension hopefully comes transcendence.
Film and Video BA, London College of Communication, University of the Arts London.
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